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I dont noe why, but i feel like such a loser nowadays.

I mean, i feel so despised...

It's as if, if Cal's not around, I don't have nebody else.

Like i dont have any friends.

Cuz all the friends i hang around with are Cal's.

(Which are also my friends, and u guys rock!)

But if its not thru him, i wouldnt even see em.

hmm...

I feel like everybody hates me.

And I wonder does anybody else ever feel the same way.

Well i dont wish it on anybody thou.

I live trying not to hate anybody.

Trying not to judge.

Trying to just be myself and wish people will like me.

Frankly, I'm just too bizarre. I guess.

And u here reading this must sort of agree, right?

This post right here is already freakish.

But I just have to post it.

Perhaps it makes me feel more...heard.